Venting my despair

[ninestigmas]

Anything your body develops a dependance on can classify as a drug? Then what a compound love is. . . . It hightens anything from a smile to a caress, clouds your judgement, gives unrivaled rushes of adrenaline. I now undestand the junkies ive encountered. Love. . . The high it provides is unlike anything one can experience, .The addiction unfathomable. . .The need multiplied with every hit, and The withdrawl of its deprivation is absolutely unbearable. Im now at risk, in my desperation for a fix, of substance on subtance substitution. And in this weary state i ask for an encouraging word and a guiding hand. . .So i lend my ear to whomever can reassure me that the detox is possible and i can pull through. . . .

Cielo de nubes

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`You will pull through! I know that because you have a good head on your shoulders and i know that because i have read all of your posts on this site.

You are 24 years old but you at such a young age know how to put a man in his place! That man who was mailing you wanting you to join him and his wife to fullfill his fantasies must be a complete idiot! you are better than that and if you had agreed you would not be second best! You would be third best to his wife and son "a play thing" and that you are not. Personaly i would not piss on him if he was on fire.

Men think we are stupid but the reality is they are the stupid ones.

Your best bet is to just never give up but only use this site to show the world your strengths .You are one of a few on this place! You show your true self unlike others with thier blury messed with images and believe me the ones you see who look like glamour models are "not" looking for anything other than attention "you are a million times better than them".

Love is a drug and it has been used as a title to a song here in the UK and just like any other drug it hurts when it is taken away but you need to show the world how positive and proud you are of yourself and that will attract people to you and i know that to be true because it happens to me even at my age but my only problem is because of my age i attract married men who are most likely not getting what they want from thier wives or just want to try something different to what they get from thier wives "they are not getting it from me".

This world is changing and peoples attitudes are changing so put a thought in your head of you and a nice loving man! You are both walking hand in hand on a nice sunny day! Keep that thought with you and go to sleep at night with it and it will come true one day .

I told you on a previous post you will just bump into him one day and you will .

You can give up looking on here maybe but never give up in the real world because thats where he is.

Stay positive and stay beautiful but most of all stay yourself.

You take care and look after yourself

Julia.

[ninestigmas]

`Omg i admire all your posts to and love the way you call it as it is, your like a fairy godmother who kicks ass! Its nice to see such an active member Thank you so much keep rounding them up. Love alex.

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`Hi Alex! Me kick ass? No i just tell it like it is and some people hate me for it but if they cannot handle the truth its thier problem.

The thing that realy makes me laugh is the ones that try to take me on and then give up because they realise for one they will not win and secondly they are just making fools of themselves . I always look at things from both sides but if the other one is talking crap they just keep digging themselves a bigger hole and then realise they cannot get out of it and then either shut up or delete thier accounts! I only ask them a simple question! The fact is if some of them had a brain cell they would be dangerous.

Sending you a BIG hug from accross the Atlantic Ocean.

Julia.

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`I do agree, Julia is a class act.

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`Thanks Amanda! I have been told a thousand times i should be on television but as you know i am just waiting for the Movie.

Take care .

Julia.