feeling abandoned

[josiet1976]

ive only had five relatoinships in my life since i was 19, in everyone i was dumped. im at the end of my road, my lastest partner i fell for very hard and quick which is out of character for me, im a take my time person and if they dont like it then tuff. but i always give in, trying to please, bending over backwards to do anything and everything i can with the idea if they happy then they make me happy. its how my heart works just as i always wait for them, i dare not and cnt ask, i suffer with anxiety pretty bad,especailly in social activities im a nightmare.
so i been sieng this girl fo 7months and i so smitten with her but she more parqanoid than me, i can live with that but for she thinks i will hurt her when i wont so she gets the hurt in first or sees things that arnt there but never makes up for it when she realises what she done so im left hanging in pain but dont want loose her, but i know she gone, ive lost her. in my heart i lost here a whilst ago hence why im here. in pain from heartache but wanting love, not fo today or tomorow but for much much longer

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`Learn to practice detachment from physical gain in relationships and self-improve in ways that make you attractive from both a physical and non-physical standpoint. And as for the "puppy dog love" disappointment crap you have endured you need to learn to just not give a s---. If someone decides to leave you, give them a roadmap and say "cya" ... life isn't about selfishly keeping people around for the sake of keeping them around. People should only stay to together for love and whatever obligations they share together. If you don't have love or shared obligations with someone, don't bother with keeping the relationship. Relationships are suppose to be mutual which means you should avoid the hell out of one-sided ones. Seems yours have been mostly one-sided.