Why i admire MTF

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I am mostly lesbian as i am mostly attracted to women, but slightly bi as male cross dressers are also attractive to me. If I am to be honest the prospect of being with a transsexual woman appeals to me more then being with a cis woman. I know many may be offended by this, because in a way it looks as if I am saying that transwomen are in some way different then ciswomen. I know that most who transition want to pass as much as possible and do not like it when someone picks you out as different and fetishises it.


Why you may ask, the answer as to why is very simple but not simple to explain. I have a believe that the mind of a transwomen represents the true essence of what a woman would be if she had been able to escape the restriction of growing up as a girl.

She is a woman that has escaped the social conditioning that all born women get to some degree. This conditioning inhibits the expression of women and prevents them being there true selves. Boys are not prevented from being go getting and direct, girls are. So when girls grow up they have to learn indirect aggression and other indirect tactics. Most transwomen i have met have been void of this B----y cattiness that many women inhabit as a result of being made to be indirect by social conditioning.

I also like the idea of a female brain communicating through a stronger voice, the good bone structure with female clothes on it. Women would have better muscle structures if they were not told by the media to diet. Dieting reduces muscle mass and in the long term increases fat mass.

I know many people who accuse transwomen of walking and acting like men, i also know many people who have said i too walk and act like a man. I think that too many people confuse walking and acting with confidence with masculinity. Taking big strides is a state of mind; it shows fewer inhibitions less fear of branching out in life. Women are told this is not lady like. Women are conditioned to believe that acting too confident is arrogance, while men are expected to be confident. So it does not surprise me when i see a transwomen projecting a better image of a confident woman then most ciswomen do. The body of a man is one of the safest places for a woman to hide in and ride out adolescent girlhood conditioning. I know that many transwomen hate going through puberty as a man, but in a way that process has spared the woman with in from the evils of this patriarchy. Gender roles repress the true essence of masculinity and femininity from been expressed no matter what the --- of the body they reside in happens to be. In a sense I am bi-gendered as I am aware of having a masculine and feminine side and I can distinguish between the two. It is as if in a way I have too personas that have alternated over the years, and just reciently I have been trying to merge the two. It is working and I am starting to feel more androgynouse in mind. Nither of my two sides fit completely in with societys gender role idea of masculine and feminine and I would feel as if my masculine side had something missing if it was to conform to societys idea of what masculinity is. My feminine side would appear masculine by societys idea of femininity.