Transsexuality--A road of discovery

[melbtrans]

I hope this is the right forum for this topic, if not please move it to the appropiate area and thank you.


I would like to share in general my road of discovery and see how many others can or do relate to it.

I started my life as a normal kid would growing up, being taught the manly/boy things in life. playing with trucks, cars wood tools the normal day to day things boys are encouraged to do.

at 5 yrs old i had an accident went through a car windscreen of mini minor dad was driving but that ok only suffered epilepsy for the next 11 yrs.

At age 16 i started at anew school often missing classes and getting teased for not having a gf or not doing the deed or being too shy to shower in front of other boys at school after P.d Classes or getting teased for asking the wrong type of qurstions in --- education classes.

I really start wondering about my life at 17 and start thinking of what my life is to be meant for.
Then one day after my 19th birthday, I woke up from a dream i had and i was too scared to sleep for days on end, fearing the same dream may return.

I was 19yrs and 9 months when my sister had a party at home in the garage, and suddenly someone tuned the radio station to a different station i asked them not to and iwas having a good time dancing to the music.

Then they tuned it to another station and i started to get upset and emotional.

I suddenly went to my bedroom closed the door and wondered what was wrong with me, why was i getting upset over a stupid thing that made me feel good, then suddenly b4 anything else i remember, i was asleep and dreamt that same dream i had a long while back.

So in the course of the next few weeks i went to a counsellor, he passed it of as too much excitedment.
I was not sated for an answer to my problem till i was 19 yrs and 11months

A physcriatrist had told me what i was going thru and gave it a name.
A scary name i knew nothing about, knew no-one that i could call for help, so I ran from it, ran and ran and ran.

TRANSSEXUALISM

I was scared and frightened for so many yrs i thought it was something contagious and rotting, and it was not for a few years later it resurfaced again and again in night after night that same dream i had when iwas 19

Well, to cut along story short, i managed to run from it for so many years and now im 39, i feel jealous of these younger transpeople who have alifetime ahead of them, but i know i will be a good women when i have the operations and start hormonal treatments and such but atleast i am not running from it anymore i just gave in and and now face proudly what i should have back then. being a transsexual/transgendered person is not bad.

Being who iwas meant to be back then but will be soon is even better, for the world is more tolerant and the people have come to accept us as for who we are and what we are going thru and finally i have been able to gain the help that was denied to me 20 yrs ago.

Well leave your comments here and enjoy this
share your thoughts, your life history of discovery

Hugzz
Leanne.

Ps
Im a m2f transgendered person



Life is a river, sometimes far and wide, sometimes narrow and short,
But no matter the direction of the current, it is the person that gazes upon
the moonlight reflections that make the decisions for which they travel.