Amnesic, 34

I am an younger geek who is very interested in being feminine. I want to feel free. I've tried dating sites, but no one is into it on dating sites. I'm trying my luck here. I've taken hormones a few years back for two months, but then stopped when my family found out. Keep reading if your'e interested.

This is not a kink. This is a way of life. I've grown my hair out naturally all the way to my back. I put on lotion all day everyday to keep my skin as soft as I can. I purposely do not lift weights so I can have small hands. I gained 100lbs over the past two years from family stress over this, but I've lost over 60lbs so far in the past 8 months. I walk/jog at the park every single morning and watch my diet. I just have a small pouch to get rid of, and I'm all set. As you can tell, this is me. It's not like I cum, then I don't want it anymore.

Does anyone think or act like me? Even if secretly? I am slowly breaking my shell. Definitely still -------- because my family is so damn strict against gays yet alone going further. I hope to at least find a friend to just share this with. Maybe one day we can go walking at the park, grab some coffee? I am not feminine in public, so we will be --------.