Daarcpayne, 49

Genderqueer looking to make new friendships Hi all.My name is Justin Daarc Payne.Im a genderqueer/FtM in prolonged transition living in the middle of the US,prime bible belt country.As far me as a person,I like photography,videography,video games like World of Warcraft,Fable,& Assassins Creed,fishing,reading,web developing,computer programming,& writing.As far as my transition;I have recently started coming to terms with the part of me that is more male than female.Im female by birth.I have a natural hormonal imbalance that started to present itself in puberty & causes me to grow facial hair.Recently I was unable to shave on a regular basis & my facial hair started to grow out more.When I finally had a chance to shave I decided to keep the mustache.I like the way I look with a mustache.These feelings are very confusing because for the first part of my life I was "straight", married to a man for 10 years & then in 2005 I finally came out as a lesbian & was open about my love for women.I have always been more masculine than feminine.When I was "straight" I attributed it to being a tomboy.As a lesbian I attributed it to being butch,now I dont really know.Im really confused.I want to explore the male side of myself but I dont know where to start.Im afraid of rejection from friends & family.I dont want to lose my wife & stepson.One way I have decided to try & work through the issues of being genderqueer is to work on making a documentary about my journey.I would like input from other genderqueers,FtMs,MtFs,drag kings,drag queens,crossdressers & anyone else that has or is going through a similar transition in their life.What it was like for you,what you lost in the process,what you gained in the process,etc.If you would like to contribute your story or part of your story to my documentary please message me here,or on facebook,or myspace.Im looking forward to meeting new people.Even if you dont want to contribute to the potential movie,I would still love to meet you.You can also follow me on Twitter @daarcpayne