Nicki64821, 42

I am a 32 year old driver that's starting a divorce. After many failed relationships, I'm looking to explore another part of me. I have been a closet crossdressers since I was 10. I am looking for a transgender or crossdresser to help me on my journey. I'm not passable, but would make so serious adjustments on my everyday appearance to try and get there. Also interested in being a submissive. Please help me find myself.