godzillaeyes1
godzillaeyes1
Joined: June 25, 2012
Posts: 21
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I understand @ Julia4you.
With me being a pansexual, having a gregarious-eccentric, yet strong personality, and pretty non-mainstream approach, I often wish that I could attract all sorts of people from different persuasions, backgrounds, and expressions. I met people from all walks of life and experiences, yet I don't think anyone has genuinely falling in love with me (obsessed maybe with what I can do for them).
I tend not to attract people who are similar to me in personality or maybe someone I have alot in common with interests, hobby wise, education-wise, and worldview. Vibrant spirits, eccentric/quirky personalities, yet sociable and down-to-earth. I make many friends, like that, but not many would see me as a realistic love interest (I'll touch on that point later).
Most of the people I attract tend to be opposite, and at this point in my life as a woman in a pre-op phase. They tend to only be men, both online and offline. Who do fall into either of these categories (not saying anything is wrong with these things for other people): Just looking for a quick booty call, a side piece (already in a relationship or married), someone wants to experiment with a transsexual, or someone who is more or less a (closeted) notorious transsexual chaser.
These type of people often remind me of the Borg, like from Star Trek or worse, as I sometimes refer to them as S-- zombies. I see a person who is so se---lly consumed or dominated that they can even put up facade or even care to put up one. They approach you or talk to you in the same manner that the perpetrators do on "To Catch a Predator." There personalities do range though some can quite aggressive and assertive, like an alpha male, while others can very passive and accommodating. Regardless, if they are jerks or nice guys, they're intent is the same to catch some kind of magical ------- that exists in ----os and fantasy movies who is more feminine than any woman, well-endowed all over her body, submissive (or dominant), and has the power of the ----- in her possession. Yeah, I'm not up for that.
Because, honestly, they could care less about me as "the AWESOMELY NERDY LIBRARIAN IN TRAINING," ME as REALLY KNOWLEDGEABLE CREATURE OF SPORTS and MOVIES," "Me as the CARING FRIEND or MOTHERLY FIGURE," "ME AS THE ECCENTRIC WEIRDO who FIGHTS STATUS QUO." "ME AS THE WARRIOR" or "ME simply as who I am."
None of that matters, it's about how wide my hips are, how large my breasts are, and how much my booty bounce from up and down." Even, how well I can take a c--- in my mouth or other assorted body parts. It dehumanizes me, so quickly. That's problem with alot of people who are sensitive or understanding of LGBT people in general, specifically trans people. That's the quickest way to break someone's heart or have them dislike you is basically to dehumanize them. Unless, they like being humiliated.
To some, I'll sometimes say that I'm in a relationship, and some have given me the answer, along the lines of "I don't care about stuff, like that" . . ."Your girlfriend cannot satisfy you in the way a man can" . . . "Whocares nobody else has to know, I have wife myself" . . . "Why do you care about that, we just having fun."
*vomit bag*
As I've said earlier in another thread, when it comes dating, like everything else, politics, the workplace, or etc. People (not everyone) tend to fall into one of three categories - they tend to be deceitful, selfish, or cowards. With me, the people that I attract fall into those categories heavily... if they are in the closet or can only connect to tgirls on a s----l level, they are cowards. Selfish, only means they are only looking to help themselves, while deceit typically accompanies that.
My frustration . I try to be a good person who is not selfish, deceitful, or cowardice, but yet I feel you almost need those qualities to succeed or get ahead in life.
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